Forget it. My feelings are so messed up now! I dun even know if i still love him as much as before or i just dun wanna let him go because we were tgt for so long. I DONT KNOW!! I guess he never even read my blog at all. If not, he wouldnt be LYING to me again. Haha. He said he wanna bring me to the movies today. Yay! I was so happy! But in the end? Haha, i was lying on the pathetic sofa crying my shit ass eyes out.

Everything is important to you, but NOT ME! You never care how i feel do you? Im so fucking sad over everything that is happening now, i really need to go out instead of cooping myself at home thinking of rubbish. Thanks for sweet talking with me, telling me you`ll come find me after you`ve settled your things. I was so happy, sitting infront of the TV, looking at the clock waiting for your calls. Haha, Yet not once did you call me to ask me to get ready to go out. Haha, as the time passed, my hopes of you bringing me out slowly decreased and eventually crashed when you told me reluctantly that you`ll take me to J8 that boring FUCK UP place to catch a movie and afterwhich, i head home by myself! HEY! Pls look carefully ok? Cant you see how sad i am? I really need YOU by my side and yet, its always so hard to ask you just to keep to your damn promise ok! My whole holiday is wasted on an idiot like you and i regret ok! Haha.. You duwan bring me out, FINE, i cant go out with my friends too? Why? Because you scared i flirt? haha.. WTF IS THIS? You keep telling me, 'tml i bring you go watch movies ok?'. WHAT FOR TELL ME ALL THIS SHIT IF YOU CANT FULFIL IT? You are damping my mood and my mood is already LOW enough, i do not need you to make it worst by giving me all this shit empty promises alright? You can spend all your days with enoch and andy, WHAT ABOUT ME? I am fucking sad already ok, instead of making me happy, you haf to keep lying to me over and over again. What do you take me for? I`m really afraid i cannot take this anymore. If this continues, im sorry to say that everything between us would end soon. Its okay to you because afterall, your BROS are more impt. You dont even care about my fucking feelings. Everytime you`re down, wasnt i there for you? WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU? Even when i called you crying, all you said was ' aiya, cb, dont talk to me when you crying la, dunno what the fuck you talking about, call me when you stop crying'. Haha, thanks for CONSOLING ME, that was really HELPFUL! Why cant the fact of me needing you right now get into your thick head? Cant you just for once spare a thought for me? Have i ever had my family problems so serious like this before? No ok! I`m the only fucking one at home alone and im always at a lost when my mom cries and i dont know what to do. You know that i am really upset over how my mom is feeling! Why cant you see that im affected in one way or another? Why cant you see that im feeling hurt? Why must i always tell you that i need you before you come to realise it? Why cant you automatically come and offer your shoulder for me to cry on? I really dont think i can hold all this any longer. No words can describe how disappointed i am with you. You are just treating me from bad to worst. That`s all i can say.

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